I am thirty two years old and cannot see when I’m ever going to be able to buy a house. Growing up, buying a house is a big part of the expected life path of the western world. Get educated, find a career, find love, get married, buy a car, have kids, buy a house then retire and die. The economy loves that series of events because it keeps you in a perpetual state of spending. Continue reading My house dreams and nightmares
Maybe it was a dream. After my first 1, chilling, by myself too this time which was good, I usually have 5, 6, even 7 but this time it only has a couple. Was it even worth it? I was told no, but, Fuck Yeah! The experience doesn’t last as long, maybe 2-3 hours. It’s not as intense obviously but it’s enough to get you that wavey feeling. The perspective was there, but not as shootingly fast. I would be outside of m body but exiting at a slow jogging space as opposed to Ferrari speed.
I started the day focused, listening to my Fight 1 playlist trying to get myself pumped up on the bus. The streets were empty, and again it really did feel like I was alone. I’ve felt like this whilst training sometimes too, the whole process of preparing for a fight is at times very isolating, but when I stepped in the ring I understood why. It’s just you and your opponent, it felt like there was definitely no turning back from the moment I took the first step over the threshold and left my house. Game Time! Continue reading My first Muay Thai fight
An affair isn’t just an affair according to the show affair. I’ve weirdly enjoyed this dark romantic tv series with Dominic West (Noah) and Ruth Wilson (Alison) as the central characters, juggling infidelity with self identity crisis’s . West’s character is married with four kids and meets Wilsons character on a family holiday break. Wilson’s character struggles with self doubt and tragedy. He’s a writer, she’s a waitress and they fell in love. Continue reading The Affair – review (Spoilers)
I’ve been given a date for my first Muay Thai interclub. I have 5/6 weeks and currently weigh 84kg which is way too heavy to fight. I’m not sure how much weight I can lose in the time but I will try for 3-5kg and take it from there. I’m not going to eat bread, 1 bar of dark chocolate a week, eat less meat, drink more water, take some bitters and try and run 3-4 days a week as well as x4 minimum Muay Thai training. I’m pretty excited because this has been something I’ve been thinking about for months. Continue reading My first Muay Thai Interclub
Times four, family in the wilderness. Or as Wildernessy it can get in the UK. It starts off the same as always, creeping up on you quick like a caffeine induced green goblin climbing your leg then the nausea starts. Easier to manage after numerous sessions but still present. Vibrations and waviness, the empty of the cage sitting there dark and gangly, Rio is missed. Continue reading Maltered states
The arrow of time is based on the second law of thermodynamics. As I understand it, the second law of thermodynamics is that things get more random over time, and that is how the natural order of things within the universe we live in, works. They call this entropy or disorder, and this increases with time. Continue reading The second law of thermodynamics and life
A two year old who drowned in a swimming pool has undergone first-of-its-kind reversal of brain surgery using a combination of oxygen therapies. Two year old Eden Carlson slipped through a baby gate and made it past a heavy door while her mother was in the shower, before eventually falling into the swimming pool. She was in the water for 15 minutes before being discovered and wasn’t successfully resuscitated for two hours. Continue reading Hyperbaric Chamber saves Eden’s life
The plant appeared. But it was there the whole time and I’d never seen it. It was a toy, a brown toy but no longer. Different, slightly paranoia inducing but not overwhelming. The lines of the world that exist today begin to melt away and a raw sense of reality begins to ooze out of the worlds pores. Continue reading Lies urgent dissolves the world as does whiskey
I felt like my life was a book. Not a movie, a book. Movies feed instantaneous and are pre-coordinated with the colours, images and movements already actualised for the brain to absorb. With a book, my mind plays the main character and it’s a slow burner, where the crevices of details are explored for eternity and everything is a maze, but also just one.